Time

Right now I'm in the office and Coldplay - Clocks is on my speakers and trying to polish off a KICK ASS dessert I just got from someone. I'm really struggling to finish my work but I'm having the most difficult time focussing. I hate afternoons like this. So much work and so difficult to do anything.

There's a few thoughts flying around in my head about time and the lack of it. The thing is everyone get 24hours in one day, no less no more. Money one can always make (or strike lottery) but not time. Someone oonce asked me whether i would like to spend an extra hour a day working if it can ensure that in a few years time I'll have a steady income WITHOUT working. i.e. so that in future one has to work less hard. I don't think so. I'm 30 now. in five years time i would not be 30 anymore. 1 hour when I'm 30 i suspect will be very different from 1 hour when I'm 35. My priorities will be different. Me having a good time then would not be the same as having a good time now. So LOGICALLY yes, I would like to have that extra cash and spare time in future. But my etremely warped mind would twist it this way. "Boy I wish i didn't spend all that time a few years ago doing something i hate and time-wasting. Yes i got cash now but there there things I could do then I can't do now. Shucks!"

Then that other guy says, "Aren't you working for money now?? Do you really love this job so much?" Yes, I'm working for money. I don't absolutely LOVE EVERYTHING all the crap that I'm doing. But I'm enjoying a fair amount of it. And I know at the end of the day, When I put in all those extra hours, I'm not just putting extra cash in someone's else's pocket. HOPEFULLY I'm affecting a change in the system. A change for the better. Lots of people when they get to mid-careeer they ask what is it that they are doing in life and is it worth it? Not everyone can answer "YES". Right now I have the financial flexibility to do this but probably not in future.

The other point (and slightly opposite to the one before) I feel like making is that while I sit here at work trying to work, I have absolutely no life outside of work. Now and then my buddies manage to drag me off to some place for dinner and dessert. I never get round to doing the things I wanna do. Cycling, Watch a movie. Lunch with the family. Again it's a question of time and priorities. It's different for everyone I guess. I feel more comfortable here than at home. Except when I need to sleep. I'm turning into a real workaholic. That shall be my next post...

Coldplay - Clocks, How apt. Somewhat.